Daz

02:36 pm: Ouch!
I just hit my head in photography in the dark room, i walked into a metal inlarger in the dark it's all painful now, i told my head of year and she said i was stupid and told me to go home, she didn't mean it in a nasty way, you have to see the funny side i surpose!

09:52 pm: :-(
What a crap day, today (Wednesday) is the only day in sixth form when i don't have a free period is sucks so badly! What makes it worse is that i have Course work to do in one of them and the other two and practical subjects and all the work i do count towards my final grade! i just got off work too it's suck a load of shit i hate the bakery i really want to move to tills, i can never get it all done there is always somet that stops me from getting all the work done. Tonight it was i had go look around the freezer and selves for tear and share bread and remove it for destruction due to possible contamination! It took about half an hour and the baking requirements wouldn't print off either that took ages too. i know the bloody bakery staff will be bitching about me behind my back but shit happens they all know i want to move departments! - I WANT TILLS!

05:59 pm: Grrrr Homework
I can't be arse to do a piece of homework thats due in for photography tomoz bugger it i'll go over tesco and put it off!

09:40 pm: Gem just left a few minuets ago so i thought i would update before i watch Green Mile which is an amazing film!

Ermmmm.... went into town this morning got myself my new Steel Toe cap boots i've been wanting for a while, my other ones have a massive arsed rip in the front of them where i've been kicking the shit outta stuff hehe. I got exactly the same ones as before they looks so different though because the old ones have has about 7 months of hard abuse! - I love the way steel toe caps hold the shape and they look so much nicer than normal boots! i also got a new pair of jeans, quite dark blue ones very sexy tight on the thighs and arse (:P ummm sexy) a bit to tight on the groin though! and i got some paper for photography too it's 7"x5" which means i don't have to fuck around cutting paper in the dark! YAY!

I met up with Gem in town too she was with her mates thought and they started to walk away from us pretty fast so i don't think thay like me much :( we went into loads of cloths shops too and i found that she like guys wearing pink quite alot (i found this out by some rather un-subtle hints), i don't recon i can pull of pink though! She was pretty quite when we met up and it got me in a bit of a huff and then she got in a bad mood with me but it wasn't anything bad. I am sorry by the way if i pissed you off, you was just so quite! - i made a piece offering by offering to was my hair for her, it was acctually a Trojan Horse to get Gem round mine hehe, nah i just know she likes my hair fluffy and i want to do what ever i can to make her to feel special and seeing my hair un gelled is pretty bloody special lol! plus it's really nice they way she plays with my hair, makes me feel like a puppy :) hehe sorry if i've embarased you Gem, love ya xXxXx

10:30 am: January 29th 2005
Friday night was a bit of a flop really but it could have been alot worse, i went around to cara's house and we had pizza and listened to music and i was chatting with the guys and all that really cheered me up after my argument with Carina!

Saturday morning i was determined to have a good day to make up for yesterday, i got up really early and went over to Tesco and brought some flowers to give to Gem after i got off work because i was planning to take her out, i had a bad feeling i wouldn't get off work in time though all day because i end up doing all the work at the end off the day that nobody else does. In the middle of the day about 2.00pm i recon it was, i was leaning down putting more labels into the label machine and Jess W opened the bread slicer and the only sharp corner in the whole bakery smashed straight into the side of my head, hurt like hell was bleeding too! I managed to leave on time though, i got home put on my glad rags and went over to Gem's and we went to Franki and Benni's (bloody nice in there) then we went to the late showing of assault on precinct 13 which was pretty good too, Jar Rule gets a bullet to the brain lol, We was pretty much alone on the back row it was nice to spend quality time together. We didn't get the bus back till about 2.05am then i walked Gem from her bus stop to her house then i walked back along way along the bridal path till i got to my turning and cut across home.

It was a well good night cheers for letting me take you out hunni love ya xXx

02:30 pm: GRRRR! Fuckin Slag!
I just got kicked out of sixth form by Mrs. Piddington for the rest of the day because me and Carina had a massive argument in the hall way in the sixth form, the stuff she was saying was well out of order and had nothing to do with her what so ever, trouble is after i went out with her for 6 months she knows exactly how to piss me off and she really has this time! I was going to shout at her and make her feel like shit but Chris and Oscar dragged me away. She started the argument and then we had a slanging match then she stopped insulting me and started saying other stuff about Gemma that really bothered me! i walked away and she followed me and kept on talking shit! I hate her so much she changes so much! She used to be a nice girl but now she's an Over-Confident, Bitch with the biggest attitude problem on the face of the earth! - Ever since we split up she's been playing the whole look what your missing thing which repulses me because it make her look like a slag, it's what they call a 'bunny boiler' for all those film fans out there! I wish she would fuck off and die, seriously she being so weird and going out of her way to be a bitch (she told me she is too)i want her to just leave me alone and not talk to me until she can be nice and we can be friends like we said we was gonna be!

01:15 pm: Psychology
Hey i've had an ok day so far, i've just finished filming my psychology film ready for my experiment that i will do next week, cheers to everyone that was in it nice work. Oh yer one of the guys that was in it had a Chav hate and i have photos of loads of people wearing it including Oscar and Holly! it's well funny. I recon i will go out and get drunk tonight because Gemma wants me to see my mates, i think she's having a girly night which is good because i don't want to piss off her mates as they are growing on me actually there quite nice. I am a bit depressed that Chris is working till 8pm tonight and he thinks he might not get drunk tonight too :( i was shocked and ashamed of you when i heard that chris! Mr lets party shoot almost a whole bottle of Cava at 10am on New Years Day! lol what a day that was FUCKING GOOD IT WAS TOO MATE! - Love you chris mate, your a legend mate!

11:50 pm: Ah What a Day
Today i had photography which i wasn't looking forward to because i still havn't done the homework i was meant to do ages ago, i can't be bothered to be honest, i didn't do a practical photography course to spend hours writing about other people work! I was thinking i was going to get in alot of trouble it was ok actually because had the nice one of my two teachers Miss Brown, i and all my group hate the other teacher Miss Basset! i spent the lesson developing my films from a few days ago which have loads of different people on final, i was going to do it last week but we ran out of chemicals! Bugger! - Second lesson i had a free so i developed some of the photos and some are pretty shit others are bloody good though especially the ones that i did in lessons with lighting and stuff! i got one of Gemma too but i'm respecting her wishes and not showing anyone because she hates it! I have photos of lots of people let me know if you want any because i'll sell them or i'll send you digital copies free when i get round to it, just let me know who you want i can always take some too! Last lesson i had tech which was a doss because i was just designing my project, i.e. drawing all lesson!

After school i check my account (bare in mind it's Tesco pay day tomorrow and i'm always a week or two before that!) and i had about £50 still i was well shocked so i brought Rush Hours 2 (it's ok nothing to Jizz about though!). Then after Gemma finished work i went and picked her up, i was going to by Walking Tall for her but she didn't want me to, so i brought cakes instead (tesco Finest Raspberry Roulard - bloody tasty! and we watched Forest Gump, i love that film it's a classic! - it was a pretty good day altogether, i'm happy!

11:55 pm: A Fairly Misserable Day
It was fairly normal at school today nothing much happened that was worth writing about. Then i went to work and i saw nikki which was great because i really miss her now she's left sixth form, i only see her ones or twice a week.

I hate the way when i finish work i want to shoot myself because my back hurts so much! Some lady came in while me and nikki was talking about massage oils (because i asked her where you get them from - i need a good massage any offers?!) and she interrupted our chat to tell me what i needed and where to get it and then she started to talk about back crackers and how her son has a bad back too, i'm worried if i go to a doctor they will want to cut me open and move my spine or something. I hate doctors and hospitals, to many bad experiences i guess. Anyway back to the point while she was talking to me she was filling up her trolley with reduced white bread, alot of reduced white bread and by the time we had finished talking i was a little curious to say the least because it was heaped and overflowing with reduced white bakery bread, it only lasts a day or two aswell! - So i asked her why and she said she freezes it and apparently it freezes very well and taste good afterwords too so i thought i would pass the message on to all the poor students that i know!

After off work while in the shop still i phoned Gemma and asked her if she wanted to come over but she couldn't get a lift but she said i could go over so i ran home had somet to eat and was there in a flash!

Paul and sam where there too so i had a quick chat with them as i don't see them so much anymore, especially sam for obvious reasons, she doesn't work at Tesco any more! I was in a bad mood all day but it cheered me up instantly when i new i was going to she Gemma, she thinks it was because paul was there but i'm not so sure, i'm not that desperate to see his crap hair, lol.

I don't know why but i'm all miserable again now though, i know it's pissing people off though too, i know it's bloody irritating when people are depressed with no reason. Oscar and Chris keep asking me what the matter is but i don't know, they think i'm hiding somet from them i think but if i knew what it was i would tell them because they have been like my best mates for ages and i would hide anything from them, i just don't know what the matter is, i'm just miserable alot at the moment, i don't know why, if i did i would do something about it. I'm worried that it's going to piss them off and they arn't going to want to spend time with me anymore or hang with me because i'm a miserable wanker, i don't want to lose my mates, i love them i don't know what i would do with out them.

01:44 pm: What Naff Day
Today not a good day really, a load of Chav Wankers were pissing me off in school i wanted to smash them through a window but Gemma had a go at me, if i did i would get kicked out of sixth form too which would be very bad! My driving lesson was early too, my instructor says i drive to much like a racing driver i'm not soft enough and i'm too heavy. I've aways loved the speed i recon i will die racing or in a car crash of some sort, i've come to terms with that tho, you got to go some how i just recon thats what it will be for me! i think i'm ready for it at the moment too, but i guess tomoz if i'm not so depressed i might think differently, i have alot of anger bottled up in side me too i really need to release it but i don't want to hurt anyone coz if i do it will be a chav and it will start WW3 in kesgrave like last friday night and i don't really want to end up in hospital either with a smashed in head! i can't get my self out of this depression recently!